Some of you might say I am depressed and you would be right. Does it help to say that 1) Neptune is sitting on my Moon in Pisces in the 7th house, 2) Jupiter has been moving back and forth over my Venus in Cancer, 3) Pluto is opposing my Venus in Cancer, 4) Uranus is opposing my natal Neptune, and oh yes, Saturn has been going back and forth over my South Node conjunct Chiron in Scorpio? I think I am doing remarkably well.
One of my basic tenets is that everything, and I do mean everything, is set up so that we can learn the maximum lessons while here in Earth School. And further, we designed our own curriculum before we incarnated. Then we forget. So when things are tough we may whine and complain – until and unless we remember.
I am feeling the Cancer archetype very deeply. Ruled by the Moon, Cancer waxes and wanes. It is cyclic, forever changing. Reflecting the light of the Sun, it emits no light of its own. Consequently its indirect – moves sideways like the crab that represents it. No straight lines for Cancer.
I went within seeking solace through my spiritual practice. I finally got the lesson in all this loss and so I am okay with it. I have to remember that the only relationship that lasts is with God. Everyone is only a wave on the ocean of being. God is the ocean. It's okay to fall in love with humans and other beings (cats etc) but they are only the temporary manifestation of the one Beloved - God.
So it’s not about learning to let go, but rather to swim in the Ocean of Being. Living in present time. Seeing all manifestations as part of the outbreath of God. When God breathes out, something exists. When God breathes in, it ‘disappears’. Everything is God.
Science tells us that energy cannot be destroyed. All things are made of atoms and these atoms recombine to form new things and Rumi says: “Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes around in another form.”
The Cancer archetype, considered feminine, includes home, family, heritage, nurturing, and culture itself. Ruling the 4th house no matter what sign is there in your chart, it has a foundational element – the root of your being. There is a tendency for us to hold on to all that, believing it is more real than other aspects of our life. We hang on because of love. We suffer because we love. It is not about not loving, but rather loving larger. Loving what is behind all manifestation.
We are all going through a huge shift in consciousness. It is part of the evolution of the planet and of ourselves. Growth can be painful. Think of the crab and how it has to lose its shell, in order to grow. For a certain period of time it is extremely vulnerable. So too, we are all undergoing the molting process. This includes a certain amount of change. This is LIFE. Death is a change of state.
Another Rumi quote:
On the day I die, don’t say he’s gone. Death has nothing to do with going away.
The sun sets, and the moon sets but they’re not gone.
Death is a coming together.
The human seed goes down into the ground like a bucket,
and comes up with some unimagined beauty.
Your mouth closes here, and immediately opens
with a shout of joy there.
And finally, Gail Sheehy says: “if we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow, we are not really living. Growth demands a temporary surrender of security.”
Be like a crab. Learn to love molting.