Last night I gave a talk on Evolutionary Astrology at Songbird Community Healing Center in Cotati. And just as I was giving the ‘cosmic weather report’ I felt a pulse of energy. I thought I was just having another bout of the vertigo that has been plaguing me ever since I returned from a workshop with Patricia Walsh in Oregon called Working with Ancestral Spirit Complexes: Healing Your Family Tree. http://healthepast.com/. Her book Understanding Karmic Complexes is a must read. See below.
After class, a woman came up and said “Remember when you said ‘whoa’? Did you feel something? Kinda like a wave of energy? So did I.” I have to say I was relieved it wasn’t me. But what was it? Could it have been the Universe nodding to what I had been talking about? Namely that today and for that matter, this whole past week, has been loaded with potential for shifting our consciousness. A power portal so strong that it could change everything. I know I pushed through some huge obstacles this past week.
Well, last night I got the message of Saturn in Sagittarius passing through my fourth house. I had been fearing that it meant my house would finally just give up the ghost and collapse around me. But now, I know that actually the message for me is to follow the suggestion I left with my audience. “Become a disciple of that which gives meaning to your life. Develop a discipline in pursuing your quest for wisdom.”
Carolyn Myss said it so well, “Do you want a backbone or a wishbone?” Saturn work, if we step up to the plate (an expression I never would have used before but that I came to use due to my cousin’s influence while we shared the honor of caring for his dying mother), can either annihilate us or enlighten us or both. Annihilation in the flame of love - Fana’ in Arabic.
While Saturn was passing through Scorpio and thus back and forth over my South Node/Chiron conjunction, I had numerous ‘opportunities’ to relive that one. Now it will go through my house of ‘home, family, cultural traditions, lineage’- the ground of my being. I know it will be fruitful, even if difficult. Saturn work does pay off.
As for this Solar Eclipse, New Moon and Spring Equinox – HUGE opportunity for new beginning and letting go of the old.
I have been thinking a lot about that expression, ‘letting go’. What exactly does that mean? I think it has something to do with detachment. Being willing to sever attachments to the past that inhibit forward movement. There is a fine line between memory of the past and crippling nostalgia that keeps us reliving the past, longing for a long gone time and place. I noticed the other day that the tug of pain that always used to occur when I drove by the marina where my former boyfriend once lived in his boat, was no longer there. I marveled at that but was glad to no longer have that experience. In its place was a space for something new - not an emptiness. I felt a refreshing sense of freedom.
I wonder if people hang on to the past because something in them fears that if they let go, there will be nothing there. Emptiness. Better to have a lot of old, dead memories than take a chance and create a new life which takes courage and effort. Is it possible that the new life will be so much better that whatever was good before will be dull in comparison?
I am willing to begin this New Solar Year with Radical Openness borrowing from the title of a book by the same name by Tosha Silver.
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