I got up early to take my car into the shop - part of my ‘taking care of the earth plane first resolution’. Last week it was new glasses, the month before a health check-up. Got the loner car, drove the 15 miles home and realized I had left my house key in my car at the shop. You know what I said. Then I remembered I had a set hidden…and managed to find them only to realize I had recently changed the lock. Had I put the second key on the hidden ring? I HAD….Not as flaky as I thought.
I turned on my computer to find I had not missed the New Moon. Again, not as flaky as I thought.
This New Moon in Aries a double new beginning, along with all the transits and station retrogrades coming up, give us a chance for a lot of growth and new starts. If you have been using the last couple of months wisely, you will have already set some goals and made some plans. If not, don’t worry. This is not a pass/fail test. Things will happen anyway. The advantage of astrological knowledge is that you have a little ‘heads up’ and you can more clearly see what’s yours and what isn’t. The Sun comes up with or without you.
That said, flowing with the stream is easier than going against it, although there are times when you must push against the tide to develop your muscles ie your will.
That reminds me. I had been having episodes of unexplained vertigo. I was sent to a physical therapist who told me the most important thing about aging that I have ever heard. A baby falls a lot as it learns to walk. Walking entails many systems working together. It includes brain development, eyesight, inner ear balance as well as muscular development and control of legs and feet. As we age, if we do not continue to walk….we actually go backwards. It all reverses. That’s why older people fall a lot. They are usually not as active as they once were so the different inter-dependent systems start to shut down. The brain says, “Okay, we don’t need this anymore, so we won’t fund it.” This is why it is crucial for people to walk as much as possible as they age.
This made total sense to me. “Use it or lose it”. We have all heard that one. And I believe it’s true of other functions, including love, courage, imagination, creativity, etc. Use it or lose it.
This New Moon in the first sign of the zodiac asks us to take action even if we don’t have a plan. Just move forward. If something doesn’t work, try something else.
What works for me is to follow my curiosity. It serves as both a harbinger and a stimulus for synchronicity. I find that as I age something in me seeks more certainty. I know, however, that these days nothing is certain, so I can end up in a type of paralysis afraid to act because I don’t want to make a mistake. Not acting is the mistake. Not knowing what to do I have adopted the strategy of following my nose. Trusting the formless to lead me to where ‘my next’ is. It has been working splendidly. Hard to explain, impossible to teach. But you know it when you do it. Finding that sweet spot, when everything feels right and is inexplicably working.
In Evolutionary Astrology, both Mars, and its higher octave Pluto, represent Desire. Mars related more to earthly desires, Pluto, the desires of the soul. Both are going retrograde this month within hours of each other: Mars on the 17th, Pluto on the 18th.
Desire is what stimulates most action in life. In fact, I would say ALL action. If we didn’t want or think we need something, would we move at all?
Years ago, my favorite aunt congratulating me on completing my MA in Linguistics said,
“So you’ll be starting a career type job now, right.”
“Not right away, not sure what I want to do.”
“But don’t you want to make money so you can buy a house?”
“No. I don’t want a house.”
“Well, what DO you want?”
“Nothing? You don’t want anything?”
“Well, if you don’t want anything, what is going to make you do anything?”
Obviously this conversation stuck with me. In fact, it occurred over 40 years ago and I remember it as if it happened yesterday, because, in a sense it did. I pull it out from time to time and has become a kind of teaching story and a form of self-examination. 1. What do I want. 2. What am I willing to do to get it? 3. How am I doing, do I have it?
Although I thought the concept of wanting things to be at odds with the spiritual seeker I have always been. I DID want ‘things’ but they could not be gained by working for money. Of course, one has to ‘earn a living’ another concept I thought strange. How can you possibly earn your living. You’re alive…that’s it. You don’t ‘earn’ it, in fact, you had nothing to do with getting it (or did you?) Our role in incarnating is another topic left for another day.
I have seen people devote their entire lives to getting things only to face their approaching death in abject fear.
One of the things I wanted was ‘to see God’. I am pleased to say I see God everywhere, every day as a result of my ‘search’. It was more like an unveiling. God showed himself/herself to be in ALL of creation. Everything is God. I didn’t know this before, but I know it now. Did I work for this revelation? In some ways yes, but it was also Grace, a gift bestowed after being willing to have certain experiences. Could I have known I would receive it? No. Was there a guarantee? No. Did it change everything? Absolutely. Was it a worthy Desire? I think so.
Sometimes we just have to move forward like the Fool in the Tarot deck. Head held high, whistling into the Unknown.