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Full Moon in Capricorn - 2015

6/30/2015

In Evolutionary Astrology, the Cancer/Capricorn axis represents both the two genders, but also gender switching. In EA we accept the concept of reincarnation and that we change genders as needed so as to have the complete human experience. Ultimately humanity is moving toward unity. As we develop spiritually we will move beyond gender. Gender operates in the dualistic world we currently live in.

This polarity was an important evolutionary step. Sexual reproduction was progress in the scheme of things. There are those who still feel that marriage can only be between two humans who can reproduce. If that were true, then what about people who marry after their reproductive years. Are the marriages between two senior citizens invalid?

This Full Moon represents the polar opposites of gender and the associated archetypes. Capricorn: father, authority, structure, rules – outer. Cancer: mother, nurturing, caring, nesting – inner. One of the biggest changes that has occurred in American society is how these ‘roles’ are blending. Many fathers now share in child-rearing, while mothers go out and help earn the bacon. On the outside, we are moving toward equality.

This Full Moon will be part of a Grand Cross with the lunar nodes in Aries and Libra…a Cardinal Grand Cross. A good time to take steps on the plans you made earlier in the year.

For myself, I am finally dealing with some things I have put off for way too long. My energy and stamina make me have to take small steps. The hard thing about that is continuing to take them when it appears I am making so little progress. We want everything NOW. If we are not getting immediate positive feedback for one of our creative projects, we are at risk of giving up. Whatever happened to the expression, “Rome wasn’t built in a day”? Nor was it destroyed. Capricorn, ruled by Saturn, is about material reality, time, and density. Mucking through reality is not always fun.

Making your dreams real takes effort. I love a comment made by Caroline Myss in one of her talks: “Do you want a backbone or a wishbone?” Capricorn and Saturn are the backbone builders. No matter what we are inspired to do, we have to act to make it happen. Most of us are not able to manifest through thought alone, although the vision for what we want comes from a non-material dimension. Knowing how to bring that vision down to earth and make it real is a skill not everyone has, but Virgo shows us how: step by step.

Water drips one drop at a time into a bucket. At some point, only one more drop will cause it to overflow. We have to have a certain amount of faith that our efforts, no matter how small, can make a difference.

The recent Supreme Court ruling about marriage equality was a long time coming. My cousin said when he came out in 1970 he never imagined this day would ever come. That was 45 years ago. Many did not live to see it.

Venus and Jupiter will be conjunct in Leo a few hours before the peak of this Full Moon. This is a perfect cosmic reflection of #lovewins.

It is also a perfect time for creative projects. Since Venus will go retrograde on July 25, she will be in orb of a conjunction to Jupiter from June 14 to August 17. During this time there will be 3 exact conjunctions. What better time to expand beauty in your life.

I sometimes forget that I only started making my soutache jewelry a year ago, yet, I have already been in a juried show (the Goddess Crafts Faire) and am currently showing the Sebastopol Center for the Arts www.sebarts.com with more events coming later this year and next. See some of my work at www.silkroadsoutache.com

With Mars only 4°from the Sun in Cancer and Pluto 5° from the Moon in Capricorn, we have added energy and pressure to make necessary changes in our lives. Mars represents our will, Pluto our spiritual intention. Conjoining this Full Moon they can help move us forward on our life’s journey.

Venus and Jupiter remind us that we have to be having fun too. “All work and no play, makes Jack (and Jill) dull people”. You have to allow yourself a certain amount of down time to rest and be replenished. We are all learning the fine art of balance between effort and rest, giving and receiving, doing and being.

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New Moon in Gemini - Beginning of Ramadan

6/15/2015

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Today I am in sorrow over the loss of one of my cats. After being gone from home for a couple of days, I found Kohani (a Polish name given by his former owner), dead in a ditch about a block from my rural home. I live near country highway and he was a roamer.

He came to me so wild he could not be touched. His former owner fed him the best cat food money could buy but did not take the time to domesticate him. A few days before he died as he was lying on my bed, he rolled over on his back and let me pet his belly, purring loudly all the time. He had come to trust me and I think he loved me too.

With a lot of time and patience, I managed to make him into a ‘real boy’. Now he’s dead lying on this back again, but with his legs in the air. He is in a very narrow part of the highway and even though I tried to retrieve his body to bring it home for burial, I was nearly killed myself. So I had to let it go. I am devastated. My other cat Melody, the queen of the house, had achieved an understanding with him. He would sit a few feet from her in the yard all the time, as if watching over her. He led her on adventures and I feared they would both end up in the road. Now she is either glued to my body or listening and looking for him.

He was with us for a year, but made profound changes in our life. So here we are with the New Moon in Gemini. Ramadan will begin in a few days. People all over the world will start their month-long fast.

Most astrologers say the New Moon is a good time to launch some new projects. Right now I feel like turning off my PG&E, phone, and internet; loading my car with my most precious belongings, putting my cat Melody into a cat carrier and just leaving everything else behind. I feel defeated by this death. I feel like my life has fallen flat. I am empty and sad. I feel this New Moon to be an ending, not a beginning. It happens to be conjunct my natal Uranus and opposes my natal Jupiter within seconds. I guess that explains the shock and loss of meaning I feel. I know that the ebb and flow of life will shift this pattern of loneliness and emptiness I feel and I know enough to trust that process. I am willing to feel the grief intensely right now as a way of honoring the bond I made with Kohani.

New Moons are when the Sun and Moon are conjunct. They only exist in relationship to a third entity. In this case, the Earth. Only from our perspective is this a conjunction. This is true of many things in life. They only exist in relationship to each other or a third thing. It is said that God created humans so that he/she could know himself/herself reflected by them. Since we live in a world of duality, we do tend to see things that way. Dead or alive. What else is there?

Last night I heard Kohani calling to me to be let in. I jumped up and ran to the front door. He flew in. Just then I woke up from that dream to realize it was only a dream. Some friends have said that it was his spirit coming home and that he too, missed me. He was showing me his love and attachment to me through this dream. Part of me totally believes in these unseen dimensions. But another part of me longs for the corporeal reality of purr and fur – is not satisfied with spirit kitties, wants the weight of his giant cat body at the end of my bed.

I admit I wasn’t always kind to him. He was a challenge in lots of ways. He was so wild when I first brought him home he howled at me from the windowsill in the bathroom for months. My other cat could not even enter the bathroom where her cat box was. He ate constantly and stole food from her dish. At one point I grabbed him by the scruff of the neck and threw him outside shouting “just go away and die” because he was so mean to my darling Melody and had her totally traumatized. But we got past all that and he got to be more of a pet to me and friend and companion to her. Both of us are missing him so bad right now. I take back all the mean names I shouted at him in frustration.

But another truth of life is that we can’t take it back. We can’t undo the past. We have to live with what we said and did no matter what excuse we had for it at the time. I felt somehow this cat’s karma was to bring wrath on himself including dying in a ditch. When he started to roam out of the yard towards the highway, I told him if he got hit, he better get killed because I didn’t have the money for veterinary bills. So that’s what he did. I feel I cursed him and I have to live with that too.

What’s the lesson? This New Moon in Gemini, which will start the blessed season of Ramadan, I vow that all my words will be blessings. I will ‘fast’ from negative talk. I will not gossip or cause any being harm with my words. Further, I will not harm myself with negative thoughts. If I can do this for a day, a week, a month…perhaps I can do it for the rest of my life. I will do this in memory of Kohani.

I hope I can get through one day.

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Full moon Tonight ..... Ah

6/2/2015

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This is the latest I’ve ever been on a lunar post. Sometimes I wonder why I bother since I don’t think anyone even reads them…but here goes anyway. It would be nice to get some feedback once in a while, so if anyone does read them, I’d appreciate a comment of some kind, even just one word.

My life is getting more complicated and busy and if no one reads them, I will just stop doing it.

As I said before, one of the reasons I stay in my current home is because of a certain bird which only sings at dawn and dusk. It begins singing in mid-May and continues through the summer, but no other time. I had never heard this particular bird before in my life and its song is so alluring, it keeps me here despite all the challenges that living in a semi-rural area in the redwood forest brings.

Last week, while visiting a friend in Port Townsend, I heard that same compelling call. I took it as a sign that it might be time to make a big change. I spent only 4 days on the Olympic peninsula, but it caused a profound shift in my being. I had a strong sense of the person I am becoming who is quite different from the person I have been. I have had strong indicators of that prior to my visit up north but it is now becoming evident to others. The inner change seems to be taking on external form.

After a few days up there, I saw enough that I realized that is not a place I want to live. One has to drive a lot just buy food. In some communities, you have to take a ferry to go grocery shopping. I don’t like that at all. I want to drive less, not more.

The change I have sensed is a shift in my internal geography rather than the external. When I returned to my home, I did not recognize it. Or rather I saw that I was not the same person as the one who had left there only a week before. I looked at everything and wondered “who lives here?” I realized my task is to continue to make the external match the internal, so I set an intention to work on that for the summer.

A long-time friend took me out for my birthday lunch on Saturday. He remarked that I had gone through a profound change from the last time we had talked. And I knew it was true. I also saw that while I have chosen to live, he is moving towards dying. Part of me wanted to shake him and say “wake up. Find something to live for.”

So what is it that is going on?

I ‘happened’ to pull out a CD of a talk by Steven Forest from Astrology Day, San Francisco March 2011 in which he talks about the effect that Neptune will have on us as it transits Pisces. While many of the talks that day spoke of the Uranus/Pluto square and the end of the Mayan calendar, his keynote was on Neptune.

Since Neptune has been within orb of my Moon for quite a while, I decided to listen to Neptune, to make my decisions in a Neptunian way…in short to be guided by Neptune. I also have Pluto conjunct Saturn in the 12th house, so in a very real way, I have a Piscean soul.

Like many people these days, I was becoming more and more depressed about life. I was just surviving day by day. I felt limitation all around me. I didn’t see a way out. I was using my mind to try to solve my problems and my mind had no answers. In a sense, I had to surrender. I had to ‘let go and let god’, so to speak. I don’t mean god in the narrow sense. I mean GOD the ultimate creator/creatrix of the Universe. The One. I had to let that force create through me…using my eyes, my hands, my heart. I had to become a channel of the force of creativity that comes to the Earth through the human being.

I have followed the path of creative imagination. Rather than doing more spiritual things with my Neptune transit, I have been led by a quest for beauty and it is leading me to my new life. I let go of my pre-conceived notions of what my life should be, could be and have instead found something I never could have thought possible. I am excited about life. I have plans and goals.

The ancient Maya say that artists painted the world into being. They were wise beings who knew the power of beauty. While in the Christian bible, god creates with the word, Mayan spiritual tradition begins with the images painted on the sky.

My definition of myself has changed. I now call myself an artist and astrologer. I don’t hesitate to use that word ‘artist’ because others did so before I did. Being an artist changes everything for me. I am no longer forced to express myself in words.

And as to this current Full Moon in Sagittarius. The Sun and Moon are forming a T Square to Neptune. We are all being shown a way out of the dilemma of words (Gemini) and meaning (Sagittarius). We can find ourselves arguing forever about the importance of this or that, but we will all say “Ah” when we see a beautiful sunset or hear the haunting song of a bird in the forest. Again Steven Forest at Norwac this year made that “Ah” sound and we all understood what he meant. We are, after all, animals. We all know pleasure and pain. We complicate the world with words, but they do not satisfy like a good meal does.

Gurdjieff talked about the need for ‘third force’ in order to facilitate change. It can be seen as the mediating energy between two opposites – sort of like synthesis. We can get stuck in black and white, yes and no or other types of polar thinking. Neither one satisfies. Neptune visibly is providing that third force these days. Neptune, while subtle, can have profound effects on us if we are not honoring it. We may find ourselves wanting to sleep more, use mind-altering substances, tuning out in various ways or even ending up in fugue states. Our addictions often represent ‘toxic’ Neptune. But when you channel Neptune’s energy into music, art, poetry, dance or other creative forms, Neptune can make your dreams reality.

Add a little Neptune to your life and see what happens.
www.silkroadsoutache.com

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