I have never been fired in my life, but today I was ‘fired’ from a healing center I pay and do volunteer work to be part of. It was stunning and shocking….oh so like Uranus opposing my natal Neptune. I actually couldn’t believe what was being said. After dropping the bomb, the person who had the onerous task of telling me the news, kept back-tracking, apologizing, explaining and I felt… wanting absolution. I told her I understood completely and what more was there to say?
Apparently I don’t fit in with their agenda when I don’t agree with practices and policies. This place is billed as a ‘community’ and so I said I didn’t think communities threw people out for disagreeing….that was not appreciated. Another New Age ‘healing center’ that is anything but healthy.
So I’m on my own again. Hoping that the work I have done so far with people will stand on its own merit and bring in more clients.
As we go through life we are encouraged to ‘be ourselves’, ‘love and accept ourselves for who we are’ etc. etc. But what if ‘being ourselves’ rubs others the wrong way. What if ‘being yourself’ makes you an outsider? Then what? This was the dilemma faced by my client and, for that matter, myself. I totally understand.
And oh so perfectly, Pluto turned retrograde today. I love what Stephanie Austin says in her Mountain Astrologer article this month about it:
“While retrograde, Pluto brings to center stage what is dysfunctional or deceitful, and compels us to either eliminate or transform it. Pluto in Capricorn asks: Are we living as conscious creators or unconscious victims? Where do we still abdicate our power: Where must we trust our own authority and integrity?”
As Patricia Walsh is fond of saying “you can’t make this shit up.” Ah the truth of astrology! Perfect day to be told I don’t fit in with their agenda. YAY! I’m a free thinker! I didn’t swallow the Kool-aid!
But once again, I am ‘banished’ from the tribe for not following the rules set by the ‘community’. Man-made law, not natural law. Perhaps being an Evolutionary Astrologer makes me inherently unfit to be in a group where smiley faces are put on everything. One would think a healing center specializing in alternative healing would have room for diversity.
Do I sound bitter? I am, a little. It was a nice venue for seeing clients and giving classes etc. I am a bit hurt as well. I have never been fired before.
I do feel that it is for the best however. My friends thought I was nuts to go back there after I left the last time (3 years ago – of my own accord).
So after advising my client to find the people who appreciate her for who she is and the cause that she can put her incredible energy into, I find I am in the same situation today. And that too is mirrored by events in the sky. Neptune and Vesta are conjunct in Pisces. While they conjoin every 4 years, they have not done so in Pisces since 1852-1859. The vestal virgins were the priestesses who served the temple and kept the temple fires burning. They were not necessarily inexperienced sexually since the true meaning of ‘virgin’ means ‘self-contained’ ‘not belonging to any man’. Sometimes they were involved in sacred sexuality in the temple – a concept we cannot even begin to understand.
In any case, with these two conjunct there is an emphasis on spirituality and service. Since they happen to be conjunct my natal Moon in Pisces by transit, I feel they have a special message for me which I will be contemplating over this weekend. It is suggested we let our heart lead the way.
And finally the New Moon. In Aries, there is a double signature of new beginnings – Aries being the first sign and new moons in general being about new cycles. It’s spring and the earth is re-awakening from its winter slumber. Hopefully we too are emerging from any self-imposed cocoons we have created around ourselves. One characteristic of Aries is its childlike openness and naivete. An Aries cannot lie because they have not learned to. They are open to new experiences. They are also pioneering and adventurous as if they have no knowledge or memory of defeat. Each day is fresh and new.
So this New Moon I suggest you do something you have never done before and try to be spontaneous (is that an oxymoron?). It can be an effort if you are not used to it. Today to honor my ‘firing’ I bought a pint of haagen dazs and ate the whole thing at one sitting. I have never done that before, nor wanted to, but it seemed appropriate. My inner child needed coddling and comfort, so I went for it. I didn’t even feel sick afterwards but went outside and did yard work.
Don’t be afraid to be an April Fool and just let go. I went to the Bouquets to Art exhibit at the De Young Museum in SF on Tuesday and saw the delightful couple in the picture. They reminded me of the Summer of Love 1967 in the Haight-Ashbury where everyone dressed like that all the time (unless they were naked). I remembered how wonderful those days were before it all got co-opted and I decided I would start dressing like that again. Now that I am old, I can get away with anything.