And yet, we can’t just sit around and wait to die. We are here. We have to do something. One of my professors early in my college education said …..as long as we are here, we should study different languages, then….we will be able to communicate with more people. A noble cause. But there are hundreds of other pursuits one can follow. In fact, there is no limit to what we can do.
A couple times a month, I go on the bus with a bunch of seniors to a local casino. Many of them go every day. I ask “Why?” The answer is often “Because I’m bored. There’s nothing to do.” OMG! I think (and I would with all the Gemini and Mercury energy I have). Nothing to do? There’s too much for one lifetime!
But with all that there is to do, we still put it off for ‘someday’ when I have time. Maybe one reason we procrastinate so much is that something in us knows that we will return and so have ‘plenty of time’ to do all the things we want to do.
I’d say few of us remember what it was we left undone in the past life, unfortunately. It can take a whole lifetime to know yourself, figure out what you truly want, then to do it. Back on the wheel of karma.
The last time I saw one of my long-time friends, I noticed the piles and piles of brand new books he had bought. I remember thinking: “Do you really think you will live long enough to read all these?” Of course, I did not say that. What I did say had something to do with all the work he had set up for himself studying all these things and that clearly, he planned to stay around for awhile, just so he could read all those books.
We are taught that New Moons represent new beginnings. So, what can a New Moon in Scorpio at the edge of winter say to us? Could it be that this is a time to question our beliefs about reality and our place in it? To change/shift/transform our opinion of ourselves….of others? To allow different thoughts and beliefs to arise that will be more in line with who we are now rather than we were 10, 20, 30 years ago.
For me there is a paradox with Scorpio. On the one hand, it is the sign for sex, death, transformation and reincarnation. On the other, it is a fixed water sign. Fixed signs like to hold on to the status quo. They seek stability and security. This is a contradiction. Perhaps, because they know deeply that things are always changing, they seek to hold on as much as possible. To create an illusion of stability in order to feel safer, more in control.
I think in this time of ‘dire beauty’, a term coined by Caroline Casey, what we need to develop is resilience. We need to deeply understand that there is no end…The Earth abides. Form and shape will change, but not substance. We see evidence everywhere that the Earth has been through a lot. Humans have been here but a short time and we have had a profound effect on everything around us. But maybe our time is ending. Just like the dinosaurs.
But the atoms of the dinosaurs are still with us. In fact, their decayed and transformed bodies, along with all the ancient plants, are the coal and oil that drives our world. We have taken them out of the ground and vaporized them into our atmosphere. We changed them from solids into gases.
We, too, will become rarified someday.
Don’t take yourself too seriously. Do think about what regrets you might have on your death bed, then get moving and do something about it NOW!
I think there is significance in the fact that this New Moon is one day from Halloween. Many of us associate Halloween with ‘shape-shifting’, living out our fantasies by dressing up in costumes. We allow others to see something normally hidden from others…our dreams, our desires. Why not do that every day? Why hide behind to façade of acceptability…wearing the uniform of uniformity? Dress up every day. Cosplay…everyday. Why not? Show the world who you really are inside?
What keeps us from doing this is usually fear. Fear of rejection. And yet, I have found that usually everyone is secretly longing to be released in this same way. This was the best part of the ‘60s for me. That we ‘dressed up’ as our fantasy self. It was marvelous to go to the Haight and see the beauty and creativity. Now we are back in uniformity. The young today all look alike. Same hair, same clothes. So afraid to be different, unacceptable.
Remember that EVERY ONE will die. Even the bully.